Sucker Punch

A few weeks ago, my mother messaged me about a Doctor appointment she’d had.  I was going out the door to buy groceries with my nine-year-old son.  She texted me “He says it’s cancer” and ever since, my world’s been going on uber-slow mode. Everything slowed down in nightmarish fashion and I almost doubled over as if punched in the stomach. I immediately texted “SKYPE” in capitol letters with shaking fingers, and talked to my mother about the doctor’s MRI findings of her abdomen.  After hanging up, I was panting. I couldn’t catch my breath.

When a loved one says “Cancer” as a daughter, my mind went to “How do I live without my mother?” because I think of everyone who lost someone to cancer… Unfortunately I know a lot. A LOT. Including mothers who’ve lost children to this dastardly disease. I got angry. If someone had so much as looked at me wrong, I felt like I would’ve beaten them bloody.

I got my food, and took a detour to Sephora. I don’t know why. Buying that $ephora $30 Urban Decay eyeshadow palette seemed important.

As a nurse, my mind went to the painful, horrible treatments my mother would endure to gain more time with us, her children. And her grandchildren. I’d recently moved closer to my home province to get more time with my family. How was I to know how important this would be?? I thought of her getting sick, how much thinner she’d get with chemo treatments, and lose her hair.  I wondered which hair dresser I’d go to to shave my own head. I’ll be damned if I let my mother go through losing hair alone.  I thought about all the cancer patients I took care of. How sick they got. How that light of hopeful seemed to be missing in there eyes at times. I didn’t relish seeing that in my mother. Not the woman who always told us to keep trying and never give up.

I will be writing about this frequently, because it’s how I’m going to handle it. Someone else I met, lost her mother to cancer. She told me the story and hugged me hard.  I hang on to that story and how this Rock Diva dealt with her mother’s diagnosis by writing her a beautiful song that became a popular rock ballad.

Lita Ford, thank you for taking me on your journey, so I have strength to make my own.



Please note, we both made each other cry!

So, with this new journey I go forward with the strength of me, my mother, my matriarchal ancestors and Lita Ford. Rock Goddess. Whatever happens, our ancestors will be proud of our fight.

Shock Stock picture post

As promised, James, here’s the Shock Stock picture post. Still working on the video. Hoping to have it rendered soon.

Returning as Media to my hometown was pretty freakin’ epic. Even better, sharing it with my horror-loving niece.

Here’s some highlights

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Night of the Living Dead cast, me and Toxie. Who couldn’t love Toxie?!

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Well-known fact about me, I can’t resist a bad girl!!

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That picture is Ed Neal, from the first “Texas Chainsaw Massacre” signing memorabilia That ornament is a miniature of Victoria Park, where  a lot of the Festivals happen.

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Q and A with Goblin.  It was amazing.  A horror fan not having seen “Suspiria” is like a ’90s kid not having seen “Labyrinth”.


Said beautiful niece having a discussion on the recent complications of “The Walking Dead” with… well, a Walking Dead


Touching tribute to Robert Zdar


More pretty ladies!


We discussed religion. He’s Jewish, I’m Pagan, we agreed to disagree.

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More horror people greeting London, Ontario fans.  This was really amazing.  I can’t explain how awesome this was.

My only wish, and I would do everything in my power to make this happen, is that the Promoters and Creators of Shock Stock continue to bring horror and vintage horror to Ontarians for years to come.

Infinite thanks to James Bialkowski and Jake Grimbro.  They’re gearing up for 2016, so please, go visit their website, like their facebook and talk to them! They’re nice guys, particularly if you bring beer!

I have once again become active with my Examiner account and renewed my contract. This feels great.  Writing for the Examiner has been one of my favorite things to do, it helped generate extra money and it got me into conventions.    When I was home sick, I could write. When I was on the road, covering conventions, all I needed was my ipad and a wifi connection.  It remains my favorite part-time job.

I’ve been on hiatus though, to take care of my lupus flare.  That combined with my job at the Nursing home, sucked out my spoons (see spoon theory here) and I had little left for creativity.  I’d think of all kinds of story ideas, but putting them down on the blank screen required brain power and energy I’d run out of.  “Does it require energy, really, to sit and think?” Uh, yeah. Yeah, it really does.  Energy I didn’t have. I had enough energy to go to work, go to bed, get up and send my son to school (otherwise I never saw him) go back to bed and nap until it was time to get ready for work again.  I’d browse the internet and news sources for story ideas, but when I got them started, I’d have to go to work, and at the end of the day, I had run out of inspiration to continue.  It was awful and it literally drained my soul. A writer has to write. Really. Literally.


my reason for conquering lupus

Then, my flare hit in the summer, which isn’t unusual.  Sunlight exposure heightens my symptoms and ruins my energy. Yeah, kind of like a vampire. Plus, too long without sunblock gives me this groovy splotchy rash.  So there I was, working full time, no energy AND in pain.  Writing was the furthest from my mind.

Thankfully, I got new meds, a new work schedule and I’m bringing it back, slowly.  It’s just taking time.  It’s taking time and it’s taking spoons.

Coffee selfie

coffee is writer’s fuel.

For anyone interested, here’s my latest article. Hopefully, more to come!

The first day of Shock Stock went astonishingly well for me despite fighting Michigan Construction traffic and a number of mishaps along the way,the least of which, picking up my son late from school. We arrived late, found parking VERY easily (5$ at the Hall, not bad really) and entered the Convention which was in full swing. We met the vendors,cosplayers and a number of Celebrity guests that had a lot to say about my niece’s homemade Disney dress.  Particularly Tony Todd, who would’ve pegged him for a Disney fan?  Oh well, even Death needs a hobby!

The vendors were wonderful and there was some amazing artwork to be viewed as well as one-of-a-kind baubles and earrings.  Pictures will be forthcoming, as I seem to have lost a vital power cord to upload but they’re wonderful, and there’s absolutely a lot to see.  I encountered the Horror-Rama booth and a booth run by Canada’s best Horror FIlm Festival, “Blood in the Snow”  Nothing brings out my patriotic side like good ol’ Canadian Horror.  I think Canada really has a corner in the market and need to show our American neighbors that The Great White North is just as bawdy, bloody and psychotic as the rest of them.  I was also very glad to see independant filmmakers showing their talent and films.  There’s screenings happening all weekend.  I can only hope my camera batteries last that long!  Shock Stock continues tomorrow through till Sunday, at Centennial Hall,London Ontario.  Forest City, the Horror fans have teken over!!

Shock Stock will be this weekend, and I’m going to be there.

After years of Conventions State-side in Kentucky, Virginia, Ohio and Missouri, I am coming home to Horror!

Stay tuned, videos and pictures coming soon!


The Changeling. Old ghost story that used to scare the pants off me, my best friend and my sister. As a joke, my best friend

gave me a copy of the VHS version for a wedding gift!

Filmed in Vancouver, BC, starring George C. Scott about a writer who finds himself bothered by an unrest spirit who chose him because he’d been touched by death… The accidental death of his wife and daughter.

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Photo credit: Mimi Rupp

My name is Mimi. I was born in Woodstock Ontario, moved to London to go to Nursing school, and spent many years there.

My whole LIFE, I’ve been a horror fan. It all started with vampires, then I discovered a “Lost Boys” article in a Fangoria issue in 1987, and it escalated from there.  From a star-struck 16-year-old, to a new mother in 2007 seeing her first convention at “Fright Night Film Fest” with her baby still on the teat, to finally meeting the “Lost Boys” actors in 2012.

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(photo credit: Mimi Rupp)

Now, I’m terrifically excited to see my hometown hosting Conventions of her own.  Shock-Stock is coming up in a few short weeks, and I’m looking very forward to going.  This is the Convention’s fourth year, and it’s just gotten bigger, so I’d really like to do what I can to support it and keep the Horror where it belongs. In our own backyard!

They’ll be hosting old Venom and Honey alumni Felissa Rose, whom I interviewed in 2012, as well as her “Sleepaway Camp” co-star Jonathan Tiersten, who I met in 2012, in “Blood on the Beach”.  He photobombed my picture with Jamie Newlander

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(photo credit: Mimi Rupp)

I was about to snap the picture and Jonathon decided to pick that time to wax poetic about the falseness of Actors  Bless him.  Please notice how near-shirtless he is. My husband has a pic of him somewhere, shirtless entirely and covered in shaving cream.  When asked why, he declined to comment.

Not to mention, Canada is pretty much a hidden treasure in the Horror scene.  Fangoria Horror Weekend did hit up Toronto years ago, but before then, I can’t really recall a lot of horror based conventions, and RARELY were there any in London.  The closest we got, was Alice Cooper concerts, in my memory.

A shame, because some of the more classic horror was shot and made right up there in the Great White North.  Classics such as “Black Christmas”, “My Bloody Valentine”, and “The Changeling”, classics I had seen in issues of Fangoria but had no clue of their Canuck roots.  I think it’s time I spent my energy giving kudos and showing love to these classics and newer films Good Ol’ Canada’s churning out, like “SUCK”, and “Ginger Snaps”.
Going to Shock Stock, covering the show and vlogging from home will be a good start, I think!

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(photo credit: Louis Perzia. Thanks buddy,owe you a coffee)